For many weeks I wondered why it was taking so long to swear me into the U.S. Air Force. I began to second guess my decision. I wondered if I had made the worst mistake of my entire life. Read below...

10.29.07
Journal entry...
I asked the Lord this question, "What do you want to say to me about praying with an idol in my heart?"
He said to me, "Lindsay, you often pray with an idol in your heart. An idol that goes unseen and unnoticed by many. It is your own hopes and dreams. It is your wishes for your life, rather than the plans I have for you."
I replied, "Lord, I repent of this. I ask that you would breakdown this idol, breakdown this self-admiration. I humble myself before you. I want your hopes and your dreams. Lord, do you want me to enter into this adventure [in reference to the Air Force]?"
He said to me, "Yes, I want you to go, but I want to be clear that I am sending you. This is not your decision. It is mine. I send you where I want you to go. I am at the core of your endeavors. I am with you every step of the way. But, you need to act like it. You have to give me the credit, even when you don't want to--when you think it is akward or when people ridicule you. Give me the glory. I have sent you, I have released you, I am at the center. Remember, you answer to me."
I surrendered my military career to the Lord right then and there. I gave up my right to control and take the credit for what He desired me to go after.

The next day, my recruiter called and asked when I was available to take the oath.