redeemed.

i know...its been too long. its been difficult to make myself write. there is this roadblock i am encountering. it is not a big one and it is really not that difficult to overcome. it is something that we each deal with on a daily basis and something that i believe civilians think we (the military) have mastered...its called self-discipline and i am terrible at it. this is a reason i may never retire in the US military. i continue to speak words of encouragement over my life concerning it...i am a tenacious, bright young woman who finishes the tasks she begins and continues to press forth toward the goal that Christ has called her towards. i do not give up, despairing over what may have been, but instead push past that which was and concentrate on that which will be. i am called to a life of joy and abundance. a life filled with grace and love. i am set apart for the things of the Father. i forget that i do not belong to myself. i forget that i am called to higher things. i forget that i am not designed for complacency and politics. i am a woman with a mission. i am someone who is wholly and completely satisfied in the arms of the Father. o, Jesus...call us to things which call the nations to your throne. remove us from the selfish...from the antiquated...call us to the things that are everlasting. bring us forth...pursue us. rescue us. Lord, we are bathed in the blood...we have hung on the cross. we have been tortured and we have been redeemed. refine. renew. and reward. show us your face. we want to see what you look like. we want to bathed in your glory. i am redeemed.